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Thinkin’ Beer: A day of big things….
June 20, 2015
I wanted to make sure I got another post up before my trip to Iceland this afternoon, particularly given all the many things that today represents in my life. Since I’m done packing (even remembered my toothbrush) and most of the chores are done around the house, I’m going to take a minute to have the last Full Sail IPA at my disposal and give some of the things churning in my head an avenue to be acknowledged, if for no other reason than some personal catharsis on a day that I have come to refer to as “”Sink or Swim Day”. Don’t worry, it’s not all heavy personal things (maybe 50% heavy personal stuff…possibly 53.5%) so go grab a cold beer, get out of the heat and let’s do this.
As I take the first few sips of this earthy toned well balanced IPA, I acknowledge I am very much looking forward to my impending excursion, due in part to the hectic work week I had endured leading up to today. Endured is perhaps not an accurate verb to describe what took place, as I genuinely find fulfillment in being challenged with the tasks and responsibilities of my recently attained position. I am still stumbling from time to time with the new responsibilities, but I continue to look forward to every challenge that is put in front of me. In addition to the rewarding challenge and opportunity to explore the areas of interest I hold, there are many other things about the company I work for that make it well suited for me. One of the most enticing is the fact that I am allowed to wear my normal garb to work, hat and all. When explaining this to a recent acquaintance over a pint, I received that age old rebuttal of “you should dress for the job you want, not the job you have”. This led to the exchange about already having a job I want, and neither one of us able to understand the others perspective. There are few things that draw my ire more than being forced to don the “business casual” look, as a matter of comfort if nothing else. With places like the company I work for, Google, Facebook, and many other leviathans of the tech industry placing an emphasis on performance over appearance I have come to one inevitable conclusion:
Beer Thought # 1: Khakis and a tucked in polo shirt are henceforth to be known as the “douche uniform”.
Kicked up and half way through my pre-airport run pint, I am feeling surprisingly relaxed given the hustle and bustle leading up to the moment I started writing this (apparently there are a few festivals and what not in Denver today….not awesome when you are running to the store as quickly as possible). I try to take advantage of these moments of relaxation, as they have become fewer and farther between. These are the times where I have an inkling to put up a hammock in the back yard, and let the day flow past me while I read a good book in the sun. Obviously that won’t be happening today, but that doesn’t mean it can’t or won’t when I return. This is all the result of one thing that used to be an inconvenience for me in my younger, more angsty self but I have come to appreciate more and more. All of you in the Denver area are going to get a healthy dose of it this week, as well as my friends in Laramie. This is another bit of stating the obvious, but I’m going to do it anyway (you can’t stop me, you’re not my real mom).
Beer Thought # 2: Summer is pretty nifty folks.
Ok, I’m nearing the tail end of my IPA, which has thoroughly coated my pallet in Lupulin at this point, as well as my time before catching a ride to the airport. As such, I’m going to articulate some of the things that make today so significant for me, and yes, this will be both cheesy and self-indulgent (feel free to skip this paragraph if that’s not your jam, it’s more for me than anyone else as it is). A year ago today, I found out that I was forever losing the person I love most from my life. It was a conclusion to what had been several months of intentionally hurtful actions on her part, poor reactions to them on mine, and many other personal tragedies that weren’t related but nonetheless compounded the problem. This was devastating to be sure (particularly as this bomb was dropped on her birthday), but it also presented me with two paths on where to go with my life. I wasn’t given a choice in having the things I cared about torn from me at the time, but I did have a choice in how I was going to deal with it. I could go the Bill Dotreave route (watch King of the Hill of you don’t know who that is) and let this slowly turn me into a pitiful “woe is me” stereotype, or I could use this as a chance to take the ashes of who I was and turn them into who I want to be. I have chosen the latter. I have become certified in the nerdy things I want to do as a career and received a promotion that puts me on a path to use them, I go to the gym everyday, with noticeable changes in my physical and mental person as a result, I’ve cut off my hippie hair and I have travelled the world. This is why I’ve dubbed today as “Sink or Swim Day”, a day I choose to acknowledge and celebrate, because I made the hard choice to swim. This is why I am rewarding myself today, and every June 20th until I feel the need not to, a gift to myself and no one else.
Beer Thought #3: I am not who I used to be, and that’s a good thing.
Ok folks, my beer has been consumed, my bags are packed and it’s time to go. I will be tweeting pictures from my adventures from time to time so make sure to check those out, and I’ll write at y’all when I get back. Cheers Everyone!